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[Ivanka Udinov]

You know that feeling you get when the person your in love with is ten feet away? That achey feeling in the pit of your stomach, that screams for you to get over your fears and take a shot? Life is short and you never know what your time here will end. You need to live without fear, without anyhting holding you back. I knew this was true and yet, I couldnt do it. I had tried, many times...it never worked out right. Every single time I let my guard down in the past, even for a minute, something terrible happened. It seemed I would never be truly happy but when I was around him none of that mattered...Actually, I found it hard to think about my past when he was around, I wanted to tell him how I felt, wanted to tell him that he was the only one I wanted. Now and Forever.

He wasn't perfect...okay, that is a toal lie. He is perfect. His face, his smile, his eyes...the way he always wanted to make sure I was okay, how he only looked at me even when there were tons of prettier girls in the room. It was like none of them existed, none of them mattered. He only wanted, only needed me.

It made me happy and as his eyes met my own, I smiled. He was still too far away but I watched him and I noticed it. His eyes were actually looking me up and down. Suddenly I felt self-conscious. Every part of me was screaming to get up and run. Just make an excuse and get out of there as fast as possible. I'd have a good excuse. I hadnt exactly been to see a feeder in three days now. And while I usually saw one once a day, two days had been the longest i'd ever gone without seeing a feeder. I could just easily tell Darya that I wasnt feeling well and that I would see her later, give Ethan a quick hello and then leave as fast as I possibly could but that would be the coward thing to do and I was not a coward...or at least, I didnt want to be a coward.

I laughed when Darya said it was good that she looked like a crazy stalker "It is not a good thing to look like a crazy stalker. Its kinda creepy, seriously...they're freshman, practically jailbait. He's not gonna try anything, its just harmless flirting." I hoped to make her feel better and then I frowned when she said I looked fine and he looked sexy...She then said I was cute when I worry and my frown deepened "Fine? Cute?....you make it sound like im a porcelain doll...Seriously, whats wrong with me? do I have a baby face?do I look like im twelve? Is it the way I dress?...I have some other clothes in my room, I can go and change and still be back in time to finish eating...I mean, if im only fine and cute and he looked as good as you say he does..." I trailed off, realizing I was rambling and instead settled on pushing my tray of food away from myself. I suddenly wasnt as hungry as I thought I was.

My attention was taken away form my sudden loss of appetite as Ethan came over and I smiled a bit, though it wasnt much of a happy smile. It was more of a confused smile "Darya is only pissed because deep down she knows in love with NAte but she wont admit it to herself..." I tried to take the topic off of me and how I dressed like an old woman rather than a high school student. I would work on my wardrobe later, throw out every single thing I had that was covering and layering "Anyways..." I began, still not touching my food "Um, I think I left something in my room...I swear i'll be back before anyone misses me." she got to her feet, smiling once at Ethan and then at Darya and Nate before running out of the lunch room as quickly as possible.

She was happy she knew how to run in heels otherwise this would have been a total disaster.

With a sigh she ran to her room and moved quickly to shut the door behind her, opening up every single drawer and tossing item after item of clothing on the floor and tossed a few on the bed, a black fitted t-shirt and a pair of black jeans were laid out on the bed and then she moved to the closet, pulling out a pair of shoes from way in the back throwing those on the bed too before stripping down to change her clothes. She was sure she oculd make it back in time to finish her lunch and to talk to her friends. She never did take long getting dressed. She only hoped it wouldnt bring so much attention to herself.

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[Nate Johnston]

The days I wish I knew who I was it never really sunk in that I was going to be a graduated guardian and be out of the world protecting Moroi and fighting Strigoi.. soon it will sink it but for now I am glad it hasn't. As much as I love being a Dhampir, we all have a fear and mine is to be turned Strigoi. But being at the academy, I am taking every chance I can get to before having to be fully serious 24/7 over protecting a Royal Moroi, which should be fun considering how most of them are stuck up and bitchy. But I'd love to protect one and see how they like it in the real world, throwing us Dhampir's our in front of them so they live and we die? who do you think they are but hey, it's our job because always remember [i[They come first

[/i] Oh they quote running through my head every second of the day.

I wish I had that somebody, who makes your heartbeat race every time you think of them heck, every time you see them. That one who you hold in your arms at night and tell them how much you love them and glad it's them with you. Or just being with them, maybe even having a family. But you know how it is, no matter how hard people try they never find THE one for them and well I guess I'll be one of them.. but then again I have Darya... Always there for me, even though I have never held her before we have had personal conversations, laying everything on the line by telling each other everything. She was my girl, even if it wasn't in the sense that the rest of them are.

Whilst flirting with the Moroi my eyes had flickered to Darya and I saw the evil looks she was giving me and that's when I decided I should go over there and sit down. As I moved, more girls giggled and pointed and I smiled before I finally reached the table and slipped in beside Ethan.

"About time. Darya here was starting to look very pissed at you."

I chuckled a bit and I looked at Darya, my gaze holding hers for a moment before I looked too Ethan. "Why? I was merely having a talk with a Moroi. Is that a crime?" I perked my eyebrow at Darya, waiting for her response to that though I also started digging into my food, stuffing my mouth with food food and more food. My god did this taste amazing or what.

Forgetting that Ivanka was there I swallowed some bacon and smiled. "Hey Vianka, you look good." I commented before looking Darya up and down and I bit down on my lip. "You Darya look stunning as always." I complimented bef0re quickly digging more into my food til nearly all of it was gone and I took a pancake of Daryas.

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[Ivanka Udinov]

I wasnt stupid, I knew that I dressed like a grandma. But I was more of the dress for comfort than for attention type. However there was one person I wanted to get attention from and while it was true that I was always center of his world, he didnt look at me the way Nate looked at every girl in this school or the way some girls looked at Ethan.

I kept this in mind as I rummaged through my closet once more before decided on a skin tight black shirt, pulling it on and smiled. It hung slightly off of one shoulder, and the sleeves were short, the fabric clung to me like a second skin. It made my body seem much better, more proportioned. Next I pulled on a pair of jeans that was slit down both thighs and held together by black leather lace that was tied on either end. It showed some skin on my legs but that wasnt what made these so sexy. The jeans were tight, clinging to my flesh and making my butt appear bigger. Next came the heels which made my legs appear taller.

I smiled and took my hair out of the bun, letting it fall in lucious waves over my shoulders before applying some make-up. Nothing too dark but it was noticable. A light natural lipstick, a little bit of pink blush, mascara and some eyeshadow before spraying myself with french vanilla perfume.

I smiled approvingly as I raced back out of my room, running toward the commons as best I could in the ankle booties I was wearing.
The run wasnt long and I was walking back trhough the lunch room doors in only a few minutes. I smiled a bit when I noticed a few people looking at me, guys mostly. I tucked some hair behind my ear and walked back to my table, looking at Darya, Nate and then Ethan before doing a quick spin to show them the full effect of my outfit "So...is this an improvement?" I asked them, looking at Darya especially.

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[Darya Kyznetsov]

Now, who was I to say about fashion? I was no expert at the subject, but I knew enough to give out pointers and help other people out. What I could not help them out with was love. I was in a bit of trouble with love myself, let alone help someone else out with their love life. Working with fashion is something I used to distract myself from love. It was a hard subject for me, what with hiding my feelings for someone. What I was wearing just showed how much I go for fashion, I have always got to look my best, if not better. With my black tank top, skinny jeans, zebra vans, black pearly bracelet, white scarf, and black hat. My headphone necklace was the last gift I got from my parents before they were murdered by strigoi, oh how I missed them dearly.

Not many people dressed like me- showing off everything they've got. Ivanka was a whole different story. She always dressed like she was going to a business meeting, which gets really boring after a while if you ask me- and they never do. What I needed to do for her was go through her whole closet and give her a complete make-over. Now, I did not think I had to change her completely, just enough for her to understand the true meeting of having fun. If she dressed like it, she would have more to show off, she did have a good body for show.

I was alright, i did not mind if Nate flirted with other moroi. What did make me mad was when he did it in front of me. He should know better.... then again he does not know that I have a strong feeling for him. He was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Was I going to tell him that, nah, I would let him figure that out by himself just from hanging around me. Or maybe if I dressed to get his attention. the good thing about this school is they did not really care what you wore, as long as you did not go walking around naked and what not.

What hurt the most, was knowing Ethan and Ivanka had a thing going for each other. while Nate and I were two people who were not really sure what they wanted in each other. I was really glad I had him as my guardian, or I probably would have killed myself by now. If it weren't for him, my life would be nothing but sleeping around with random moroi, and possibly even random dhampirs. I would become a slut of some sort. So I was glad for his protectiveness.

"Fine? Cute?....you make it sound like im a porcelain doll...Seriously, whats wrong with me? do I have a baby face?do I look like im twelve? Is it the way I dress?...I have some other clothes in my room, I can go and change and still be back in time to finish eating...I mean, if im only fine and cute and he looked as good as you say he does..."

I only shake my head, giving her a look. she did get over paranoid sometimes, and it was kinda annoying. guess that's what happens when your in love. "Well, in a business suit, it's not really that sexy Ivanka." I shrugged, patting her shoulder. "But he still loves you." I spoke, smiling at her before turning to the boys as they sat down. I smiled at Ethan, then looked at Nate, annoyance showing in my eyes.

"Um, I think I left something in my room...I swear i'll be back before anyone misses me."

I watched her go, raising a brow as I listened to her words. She did not forget something in her room, there was something she did not warn me about, and it made me wonder. I glanced at Nate, hearing him comment on how stunning I looked. I smiled at him. "Well, I did spend more time working out what I am wearing. Took forever, but I am sure it makes you wish I was yours right?" I joked smiling at him before chuckling a bit, seeing him take a pancake. I frowned, "Your such a pig Johnston." I teased, handing him the rest of the pancakes, eating my ham, hash-browns, and crapes.

"So...is this an improvement?"

My mouth popped open-thank goodness all my food was swallowed- and stared at her, nodding my approval. I smiled at the outfit and stood up, slinging an arm around her shoulders, leaning in to say something. "Huge improvement. I think you just might make Ethan get a boner." I joked, laughing as I sat back down, giving her a high five and looked at Ethan, seeing his reaction.

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[Ethan Wate]

The lunch room was packed this morning, everyone was up and early for the day, which was different. Mondays where a day that people slept in a little later because of their party hard weekend. Or there was something that got everyone up and out of bed. Must have been some sort of prank that was going around. Seeing people's faces as they eat. The way they look as if they are about to let their face fall on top of their food just to get some more sleep. Possibly their friends woke them up and got them out of bed, hoping to get the good food. Luckily Nate and I were already out and by the food court, or we would have been one of the last people in line, which meant most of the good stuff was gone. With my stomach growling, the food people would have to buy more food everyday, what with the growling of stomachs all over campus.

For those who are claustrophobic you had to feel bad for them. They were probably eating outside somewhere. Although the good thing about having a table in the back- a table full of kids no one wanted to be on their bad side- is that you had a window to breathe fresh night air from. For us it was morning, but for everyone else out in the world, that was when they were asleep. We were most active in the night, for moroi have a sensitivity to sunlight. Storgoi are worse, but they ca not move into the sunlight at all, or even sleep for that matter. That is what put us in danger. We sleep while they hunt us down one-by-one. Just waiting for us to become alone and helpless.

If any strgoi got their hands on Ivanka, they would lose their heads for sure. Touch her, and they would not want to mess with me again. All my life we are trained to protect moroi, always having the same logo drilled into our minds. They come first. I wouldn't mind giving up my life for Iva, I loved her, there was no doubt about that. Nothing would stand in my way of protecting her, even if curfew and the separation of dorms threatened me. I would protect her at all costs, giving up my own life to save her from a bullet, or even a hungry storgoi.

"Why? I was merely having a talk with a Moroi. Is that a crime?"

I heard Nate speaking, but to me I had no clue. My eyes were on Ivanka. Once I spotted her in the room I had hauled my ass to the table, getting a seat across from her, smiling as I met those beautiful hazel green eyes. I had turned back to Nate as I chuckled a bit at Darya's reaction. I had to shake my head, "You guys fight like brother and sister, you know that?" I teased, punching Nate lightly in the arm. I knew something was up. Nate had feelings for Darya. It was still fuzzy, with the way they fight and get mad at each other.

"Um, I think I left something in my room...I swear i'll be back before anyone misses me."

I turned as Ivanka stood up, starting to leave, a frown crossing my face as I watched her go. I made a face, looking at Darya as Nate took a pancake. I only smiled watching her yell at him for being a pig and taking all the food off her plate. I only shook my head, chuckling to myself, looking around the room, seeing everyone in one place. This year the school population wasn't as big. Most of the people here previous years were either killed in the strogoi attack, sent away to a safer school, or graduated and starting a new guardian life in the real world. Mine was only in a month. It was hard to believe I would be leaving this school and moving out to protect Ivanka in the real world...

"So...is this an improvement?"

My thoughts returned to the present, before graduating as my eyes widened at the clothes she had on. SO much better than the pencil skirt she had on earlier. I felt my jaw drop at the sight of her. The way those jeans clung to her, the way those heels gave her extra height, that black shirt showing off her curves. Hormones began raging inside of me. I nodded to myself, smiling as I looked at her eyes. "You look... wow." I foolishly answered, mentally smacking myself for such a stupid comment. I looked at Nate, then back at her, my eyes glued to that new sexy look. I had to admit, it looked a lot better on her than all that business shit.

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[Ivanka Udinov]

I wasnt very comfortable dressed like this, I never felt comfortable showing my body off. Though I knew my body was amazing, I never actually felt pretty enough to dress like this. Darya might argue and say im beautiful and Ethan...well, he would give an hour long speech about how stunningly gorgeous I was, this I knew to be true but I never believed a word of it. Growing up the way I did, never knowing what it was like to have a family, to have friends or even to be told something nice might have damaged my self-esteem more than I cared to admit...I grew up believing that I was nothing, that I was no one important and I owuld never be important...I would never know love, I would never know happiness and I would never be pretty.

But standing here, looking at Darya-whose mouth had fallen wide open- made me feel different. I smiled a bit as she linked her arm around my shoulders. I always felt better around my friends. They accepted me for who I was, even if who I was wasnt good. They loved me all the same. I could have three eyes and two noses and they would still love me because for them it really wasnt about the way I looked or dressed, it was about who I was as a person.

I chuckled a bit when Darya admitted that my current outfit was a definite improvement but I paused and made a face "Ew, you can be really gross sometimes." I made a face and rolled my eyes as I high fived her before looking at Ethan with a very small smile.

Ethan had just about the same reaction as Darya. His mouth dropped and I made an effort not to chuckled as I waited for him to say something. Maybe he didnt like it. What if he liked me better before? I mentally kicked myself, running a hand through my blond curls before hearing him speak. His response was perfect. If all he oculd manage was a 'you look...wow' then that meant I left him speechless. It made me feel good and I smiled happily "I um...thanks, Ethan." I spoke, moving to sit next to him.

My attention when turned back to my food and I picked at my hashbrowns...I still wasnt very hungry. After hearing Darya's fashion advice about my normal attire...after hearing her say that I was only cute while Ethan was completely and udderly sexy had completely killed my hunger. I couldnt be cute. Dogs were cute...I looked at Ethan and grinned lightly before averting my eyes, looking down at my tray as I continued to pick very lightly on my food.

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