Fate Rewritten

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Bella's Story

I know its cliche to say that life is hard and that sometimes things don't quite turn out the way your planned. I have heard people say that to me so many times in my life that its become my excuse every time something goes wrong.
Life just isn't fair. And it doesn't matter how old you are, where you come from, who your with...as long as your alive, nothing will ever be fair.

I met Edward three years ago, the first year with him was the best year of my life...as weird as it is for someone who is only eighteen to say, its true. Every minute, every hour, every day that I was with him made me feel like I wasn't just some girl. I wasn't just another person to him, I was his and his alone. I was the one person he'd chosen to spend the rest of his eternal life with and I was happy with that and I was more than willing to give up my humanity, my life, everything I had to offer...I would have given it all away just to be with him forever. To marry him, to love him and to cherish him every day of forever.
But fate can be cruel. Life can be cruel and the things you thought to be simple turn into something completely different. Suddenly the things you know and the life you've lived is gone, in those final seconds where all you can think is 'Why? Why wasn't I enough for him? Did he ever truly love me?'...its in those final seconds that you realize you'd been so caught up in him and his world that you'd missed out on everything.

All the things a normal person goes through, you'd skipped. There was no awkward first love, there was no terrible first kiss or weird first date silence where all you do is look at each other...you'd skipped all of that and gone right to 'I love you' and 'I want to spend every day of forever right here with you'

It was the kind of love that was too good to be true, the kind of love that seemed so perfect and amazing in every sense of the word...people would have killed for a love like that and one day, you wake up and you snap back to reality.

The guy you thought loved you is gone and your left all alone with nothing to remember him by. Not a single picture...it wasn't that he didn't love you, he loved you very much...you just weren't enough for him. And how could you be enough? You were nothing...nothing but a foolish, love sick human.

But time goes by, life moves on and despite all the pain and the tears you've cried you find someone that makes living worth while again, someone who makes the pain feel not so bad, the whole in your chest is almost healed when your with him.

It wasn't a remedy for your pain, it was just a band-aid. A way to make yourself feel better...a friendship that would last forever because, despite all the drama and all the fights you'd gotten into over the years, he was the one person you could count on, the one person you knew you could trust with your life and heart...then suddenly that friendship isn't a friendship anymore. You wake up one morning and realize you've fallen in love with this person and you decide to forget the one who left, the one who didn't want you...

You start a life with this friend, this amazing person...you become engaged and your expecting a child then out of the blue he comes back, your first love is back in your life and you cant seem to face him. Your afraid of how he'd react to the news but you tell him anyway, you tell him that he couldn't just leave and not expect you to move on, it wasn't fair and he's upset...he's sad and hurt...He vows to find a way to get you back, to be with you again and all you can think is...what took you so long? Why couldn't you have come back before I got engaged and got pregnant? Why couldn't you admit you still loved me sooner?

Maybe if he had come back a little sooner, you wouldn't have taken that first step toward moving on, maybe if he'd come back...Fate wouldn't have been rewritten.

[Nicole Aria Veraldi]

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